andrue_c

sorry

Thu, 16 Nov 2006 14:05:01 GMT

i know i know. i didnt really do it.
but the feelings were there.
god.
i made a big deal about it because im retarded.
and yes.
i am wasting your time.

oh my

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 15:08:02 GMT

my life is so fucked up at the moment.
i know that things will get better.
but now the only thing keeping me alive is music.
i know something wouldve happened during the high of my severe depression if i didnt have that rancid cd.
or that skatalites cd.
recently ive been returning to the old music that made me happy in 7th and 8th grade.
prolly because my mental state is that of that time.
oh god.
edward come back.
why the hell would you ever say that?
to the vice principal?
god.
now look at what happened.
now you are probably going to boston to get checked out.
why didnt you just talk to me?
and jon,
you have no clue about whats going on.
geez.
i have to home school my self until next year.
my school decided im a threat.
even after my extreme justification.
im just happy i didnt get fully expelled.
but home schooling my self is not cool.
it would help if i knew what the hell im doing.
really.
help?
anyone?

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 21:46:20 GMT

i want to say i hate everyone and everything except a select few things, but that sounds far too cliche in my eyes.
im not angry.
im disappointed in many aspects of my life.
many people are greedy and selfish.
mr. kalnoky said it best:
"how did it come to this?"

gah

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 23:33:13 GMT

yes.
i have toatlly wasted my summer.
i havent been able to see alison.
i havent gone to a show i want to go to.
im missing one as we speak.
im quite frustrated with my stupid responsiblities and location.
i hate everyone within a 10 mile radius of me.

Maybe

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 13:54:54 GMT

I Wasn't Aware
Of The Extent Of Your Care.
I Didn't Realize.
Now I Do.
You Cared When I Myself Didn't.
I Thank You For That.
I Didn't Realize The Extent Of My Flaws.
And Even When I Resisted,
You Kept At Me,
And You Persisted.
And I Thank You For That.
I'm Still Not Bothered.
There Are Many People.
But For Some Reason.
You Remain In Contact.
It Almost Seemed Silly When First Proposed.
Now, Its A Reality.
Maybe.

Hey!

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 12:19:17 GMT

I wished you would say things instead of alluding to them. I wished you would come out and say what you really mean and really feel. This isn't good for you or anyone. It's only frustrating people to no end. Cause kiddo, I need to know whats up at times.Most others I leave you alone, but dont start what you cannot finish. Thank you very much for all the interesting things you have done and made me realize.

I Really Appreciate It.

Hey!

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 12:18:36 GMT

grrr

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 22:14:03 GMT

i dont like her. gahd. stop saying that.

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 16:29:57 GMT

i am sorta happy with myself again. for alot of reasons. no, im not depressed. teehee. the comps like being made now. i think im making headway. i just wish i lived closer. grrrrr. mall tonite.

why

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 16:28:38 GMT

im terrible at alot of things and i am not happy with myself. i need to do alot of things right. i am frustrated with my relationship status. gahd.

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 16:18:35 GMT

i am getting quite frustrated with my current living situation and a few people. im not sure about a few things. but for the most part, the people that matter in life i am going strong with. but gahd. there are times where i would not like to live where i do. other times, im glad i live in this hellhole. but for the most part, i would like to leave. but alas, i cant. i think life would be alot much better if i did so. im not saying i dont appriciate what i have, cause i honestly really do. but what i do not like, is the excess. no, i do not want the most expensive everything. we dont need gps in our car. we dont need a 40+ inch tv screen, we do not need every friggin video game that comes out. id be happy living behind a dumpster as long as i surrounded myself with good music and good people. if i didnt have so much responsibility at home, i would leave and become a squatter. i am not joking. i would find a place and live there if i couldnt find any where else. i dont not like my hometown. in fact, i despise it. there are a few people here that i can say arent like the rest. but otherwise, it is populated with kids too fucked up to realize whats going on in the world. the schools are fucked, the job market is crap. the amount of drugs used around here is astronomical,the schools are losing their accreditation. public works and services are closing. why has this come to this?

gah

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 13:38:06 GMT

well today.
im tired.
i dont like hardcore music.
the new "hardcore"
with rediculous flail dancing.
you look stupid.
dont do it.
and the straightedge kids.
if you are going to be straight edge,
then shut up about it.
its not like people who are social drinkers wear social drinker shirts and draw little beer cans on their hands.
what happened to old hardcore?
it died.
im sad.
i wasnt there for the funeral.
anyways.
people suck and arent open to things.
proof:The Widescreen Edition
here we have this supreme local band.
they rock harder than anyone.
they play their instrements like they are attached to their hands.
they play music with everything theyve got.
and all but 4 people were inside the watch them play their 5 minutes set due to technical difficulties.
i was one of those 4.
everyone else was outside.
just because they arent "hardcore" doesnt mean they suck.
people need to open up to new things.
i bet if 10 kids came in there to see them, i can guarantee that at least 7 of them would walk away wanting to hear more.
but that didnt happen.
people need to open up.
scene unity.
they are there to play.
they take their time to set up and play and pay expenses.
i may not like hardcore kids,
but its all about unity.
and people need to realize.
we are all in this for the same reason.
why hasnt anyone else realized?

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 18:56:11 GMT

arg.ive been grounded and my hair is gone.im finishing up my comp for central mass bands.if you care go to www.exclamationrecords.com grrr.

Sat, 17 Jun 2006 22:48:57 GMT

today i like exploded because of sheer heat and the fact that the only shirt i had left was some silly sarcastic one. so i wore my jacket all day in the blistering heat while skating up and down the hills of my boring suburban hell. it was quite hot but my hair stayed up all day due to ali con quesos suggestion of using soap to hold it up. it is quite amazing.